The Shadow of Death

“Yea, though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death…” Psalm 23:4

There is physical death, yet there are also other kinds of death… death to who I was, to life as I knew it, to the way it used to be, to the things I loved on this earth, the people, places, attitudes, habits and thoughts that were familiar and comforting…. I will still hope in the Lord, that He will make all things new and beautiful again, in His time.

Yea, though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death… death to life as I hoped and dreamed it would be, to faithful friendships and relationships, to the little country cottage with a white picket fence, to birthing children who would care for me, and then happy grandchildren around my feet… I will trust the Lord’s perfect will to be worked out in and through me, through any means He has chosen for me.

Yea, though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death… death to my plans, to the things I worked so hard for that shriveled before my very eyes, to the perfect job, even to a particular ministry and calling… I will bow in submission to my heavenly Father who loves me. I will surrender to His will and His ways, and to what He is doing in me, for He is good.

Yea, though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil, for HE is with me; His rod and staff comfort me—console me, extend compassion to me, show and prove deep empathy toward me. He weeps with me when I weep, and sighs with me when I sigh—this is deep empathy. What affects me, affects Him.

There are joyful days ahead of me, but today I feel a sting of the death of things that really must die within me. I gladly suffer the loss of all things “for the excellence of the knowledge of Christ Jesus my Lord, for whom I have suffered the loss of all things, and count them as rubbish, that I may gain Christ” (Philippians 3:8).

“For I will turn their mourning to joy, will comfort them, and make them rejoice rather than sorrow… And My people shall be satisfied with My goodness, says the Lord” (Jeremiah 31:13-14).

Dear Lord, help me to see my losses in this life as gains in Your kingdom, for there is nothing better than gaining You. In Jesus’ Name, Amen.